Holidays are busy, stressful and wonderful, however if you have lost someone recently or have been unable to heal from a loss, they can feel even more stressful or obligating.
There is no right way or wrong way to spend the holidays, we may have traditions which those loved ones have been apart of and you may not want to lose those as well. Try continuing those traditions and add symbolism, such as a special candle, and speak of a past memory in which they had made you laugh and made that tradition remarkable to hold them close as you continue that tradition. You may want to create a new tradition in honor of them as you move forward and heal from your loss. The traditions may be something you no longer wish to continue without them and that is ok too.
Please keep in mind that you can spend the holidays how it makes you feel better, it may be alone, it may be still visiting family and friends and being able to take a moment to yourself during those visits.
However, you choose, please talk with those who care and love you, they will understand and try not to be upset with yourself, instead remember them with a smile. With every smile or tear, you have been blessed with having them in your life.
Holiday helpful links while you are grieving are provided below ~
What's your grief holiday guide
https://whatsyourgrief.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/12/Holiday-Grief-Support-Guide.pdf
Psychology today
Untangle grief
https://untanglegrief.com/christmas-grief/